After considerable thought and reflective mood i have decided to make my word this year and every year forthwith anything to do with ....pertaining to being happy and 'content'. This has come from within and not quickly...with much thought..... many hours questioning, reasoning...recognizing certain personal qualities and basically wondering and finally 'wanting to know' where my bubble for life went. Who stole it. 5 years almost ....possibly more i have lost that 'effervescence for life' .
I have always been a happy girl and i am sure some of my new friends see me as a happy girl...but i know and my old friends and family i am sure know i am not the girl i used to be. Yes...much has happened in that time...things that would break the tried and tested of most lifes cruelties...plans we seem to make for ourselves and family get interrupted, not by intention but mere fate. Its interesting how little things can break ones heart as much as the sudden death of a loved one, i guess its what we put into life and our little unexpected expectations of what comes back to us to bring it all into perspective.
I need to make peace with myself and move towards each day knowing it is going to be better than yesterday, trusting i have made the right decisions and be 'happy' with it. Believe in it.
I need to spend more time with family this year and worry less about the future of me and my family.
So....'Happy' it is and lots less worry.
Oh boy and i need to upload some goodies....:)
Thanks for stopping by....xxxx mippi manis (sweet dreams)